006

I've been thinking a lot about trust lately. Trust within the tension. The friction of change. When we have an experience that gives us anxiety, do we go through that fire and learn something that might catapult us through growth or do we trust our body's signals and walk away? Or both? At MediClub circles tonight I led the opening share and I brought up this topic of trust. Across the board, we're all trying to figure out how to do that. I had dinner with a friend after and he said, "I always thought that trust meant you believed the outcome was going to happen but it's really hoping it will happen without being sure. To trust first and then believe later." I've experienced that the higher I go the more things are thrown at me to challenge my trust. In some areas I am firm. In other areas I feel like I'm losing my mind and can't find my inner compass. @jesseisrael reminded me tonight that the more you sit in the fire of not knowing, the better you get at handling with the heat. @freeandnative always reminds me the Universe is sending us tests to see if we can trust ourselves, love ourselves, and believe in ourselves enough in our ability to come through when we want to give up. As the powerful Nina Turner said, "We can't have testimony without a test, and we are being tested right now for whether or not we've got courage enough, hope enough, fight enough and love enough to do what is necessary." Trust is a muscle. We just have to use it