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 A couple week ago at MediClud circles, we talked about waves. How live is just a series of waves and you have a choice : to learn to ride them or get taken down by one. I've been in some choppy waters the past few weeks after months and months of smooth sailing. It reminded me that no matter what, storms will come. It's part of nature. It's reminded me that change is not linear but we can keep swimming in the directions towards where we want to be. And it also reminded me that sometimes, the waves seem so big and so terrifying, or maybe you're just learning how to surf and everything is scary, but if you can find the strength to say, "baby, bring it on" you might find you actually catch the wave and ride it out. So these choppy waters have been taking me down but I keep standing up and paddling out and I think that's the point of it all. Today I went to the gym and got on the treadmill and it had a little TV in front of my face. I didn't turn it on. I just looked at myself in the reflection. I stared for a long time. I ran hard. My favorite song came on, 1942 by PND so I cranked up the volume. And I looked at myself, smiled, and said, "baby, bring it on."