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I can't remember the last time I felt as uninspired as I did for most of April. Holy f*ck. It was heavy, felt like I was being pulled backwards into a black hole and didn't know where I was going. Thank god for Sat Kriya and Kodak Black which kept me afloat. For the first time in the face of adversity I felt like I could actually keep it together thanks to the strengthening powers of the practice. But I couldn't shake the feeling that I wasn't inspired anymore. After asking for advice, Guru Jagat called me and said, "get off the social media." She reminded me that when we view the world through the lens of social media that comparison robs us of our own inherent creativity, what WE have to offer to the world. I didn't really think much of it and was totally tired of social media anyways so I was up for the challenge to take a break of the mindless scrolling. After 48 hours of that one little thing, I couldn't believe how it was ruling my life, dimming my creativity, and blocking my own creativity, so subtly I didn't even realize it. In any industry we work in we see how others create their lives, live their lives, and experience success, therefore we subconsciously create the construct that because we're in that industry, that's how we should be too. We do it without even realizing. As I logged off and just allowed myself to be more attentive to what I want to share with the world and how I want to share it, I realized my heart has ALWAYS been encouraging me to do it that way, I just wasn't following suit because I thought I had to be a certain way based on my chosen path. Inspire. In / Sprirare. Into breathe. Into the Breath of Life. c. 1300, "immediate influence of God or a god." Replace God with what you want. Soul. Universe. You. Immediate influence of your own Self is what it means to be inspired. When we spend the whole day scrolling and subconsciously comparing our lives to others, it takes away from our own inherent influence and flavor of what we're meant to do and HOW we're meant to do it. In order to endlessly create + inspire ourselves, we have to meet ourselves instead of running away from our Self.